Have you ever…

dopetasticson:

keshiaanne:

Had such a strong bitterness built up in you because of someone but all while you were trying to get certain shit together you just held it in? Kept quiet about all that you were feeling. Only venting to certain friends you trusted but for the most part keeping it in. Eventually feeling like it’s all you felt and you wanted to let it go but the person who caused all of that was the last person you ever wanted to yell out at and release all the bitterness on? So eventually you decide to just keep it in but then fights start out of nowhere because of little things and those little things remind you of your bitterness so you’re fighting because of the wrong reasons. And it’s not just this person you’re fighting with. It’s with others that have done nothing wrong to you and yet something goes slightly off and you snap? It’s probably the worst feeling in the world. You know how to get rid of it and yet the solution isn’t what you want. So instead to try to find other ways to let go of the bitterness, only knowing that they won’t work. And yet you’re still in denial of it all.

Damn, couldn’t have said this any better. It’s crazy cos this is exactly how I was feelin before this passed weekend came. That whole snappin for no reason or js finding little things to bitch about was js gettin out of control for me. I came to that point where I wouldn’t even talk or listen to anyone js so I wouldn’t be a bitch. And the only solution where I can get my mind off things were js straight up smoking that bud and drinking. Real shit. Which ..led to other things.

Js think with your head Keish. Real shit. Cos the only reason why we get bitter is cos our heart. Our heart wants and feels shit we can’t really explain, and when we don’t get what we want, it turns into this bitter selfish bitch — causing us to do things we don’t intentionally mean. Feel me? Mind over matter type shit. My advice? Let everything go and say what you needa say to the person(s) causing you to feel this way. I know it’s easier said then done, but trust yo ..guarantee you would feel better. I middle finger promise you.